So it’s 8:15 Saturday night and I’m sitting here on the couch, glass of wine in hand, Bravo on for background noise (unless it’s the RHOC** and then it’s NEVER background noise) and my palms are sweating. I’ve been putting off writing this post almost all week, it’s freaking me out to do this but I want to do it so bad, so here goes nothing!
Why am I freaking out you might ask? I hold myself to very high standards and I HATE FAILING and by writing this first post it means that I am putting myself out there for the world to see and I don’t want to fail. I want this blog to be successful; I want to be able to look back in 5 years and have people that look forward to my writing; I want to grow through the writing of this, and maybe even discover a part of me that has been hiding or waiting to come out.
I consider myself a successful woman – I married the man of my dreams (literally had the HUGEST crush on him in high-school…his car….SWOON), have two gorgeous daughters (2.5 years old and 7 months) and I help my mother-in-law run a successful women’s boutique (Simply J Boutique) on King Street (one of the top shopping destinations in the South East) yet I still worry about not being perfect. I feel like we have social media to thank for the feeling of “never being good enough” but I have to remind myself that my family and friends love me the way that I am (anxiety, OCD and everything else…) ….oh crap…RHOC just came on, must hit the pause button…and refill my glass…
And maybe a little ADD too…ha ha!
I’m not sure where this blog is going to take me, but I want to keep it real and share my stories with you, and even look to you for words of wisdom to help me along the way. My journey is going to involve my girls growing up (already freaking out about the teenage years, but according to friends, the THREENAGERS is worse…ugh), balancing being a wife and mom (already feel like I struggle with this) oh and working too (trying to launch an e-commerce site for the store). Lastly, I will be working on my health and fitness…it’s my outlet and always make me feel so much better so I’m challenging myself to make time for it!
So there ya go…first blog post done…wasn’t so bad right?
Hope you enjoy the rest of your weekend!
**RHOC – Real Housewives of Orange County